"We've got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen." D.H. Lawrence
Since I started my weight loss journey through the FIT Challenge, so many things have changed in my life. I have learned how to live a life that has added years to my life. Eating right, getting to the gym and being more active over all, have gave me a new perspective.
The mental changes are the most important ones that have made all the difference to my new way of living. The new physical body that I currently use, is all because of the new mentality that I have. Learning to eat right and exercise properly took time and effort . I had to learn to let go of the past and negative thoughts, and emotions.
My journey has not been easy or perfect. There have been many times that I wanted to quit, give up and there definitely were a lot of tantrums, arguments and tears. It was a struggle for my trainer to get me to truly talk to him about things and open up so that he could help me.
Being deeply hurt by several people in my past really put up a lot of walls between myself and the rest of the world. I did not trust a lot of people when I first met Ryan, especially men. I still have those same issues. However, it is much easier for me to talk with Ryan and trust him.
Its still a learning process to open up to others and let them in so that I can enjoy a life that is meant to be lived, and not one that is just going through the motions. Its all about learning to take risks and doing what is best for ourselves while being a positive reflection of those who have helped shape us into the person we are now.
My weight loss journey with Ryan has not been perfect. There are a lot of struggles and hurdles that had to be overcome. Physically, emotionally and mentally, those hurdles had to be jumped over. Some take longer to get over, and had to be faced. We can not avoid or side step the hurdles if we want to improve ourselves.
For myself, it seems as if I have been facing a series of hurdles recently before I reach my end goal weight. Its something that I must embrace and learn to deal with in life. There are always going to be tests and hurdles. It is just a matter now for me to learn to maintain a higher standard of living for myself. To learn to live my life, having fun and being my new self while dealing with the hurdles. Balancing everything out in a much better way and dealing with the hurdles in a positive way instead of pouting and shutting them up with food and other poor decisions.
My life and my journey has been worth everything that has happened. I would not trade a single moment or how Ryan and I did things for one moment. Its just learning to deal with them in a more perfect manner than what I used to. Life is a learning process that we go through no matter how old we are. Its just finding out what works best for us.